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A friend of mine died last week. He was my age. Just got married… less than a year. Was told that he died due to some breathing difficulty. No history of heart problem or whatsoever, with no warning, no anything… he just died. He was my age… He was my age… My Al-Fatihah goes to him…
In less than a week, it was "almost" my turn. I "almost" die today of drowning. Seriously, I "almost" die today! No kidding! When i thought that it is already time for me to say goodbye to the world, a hand grabbed me and pulled me up to the surface. Please don’t ask me how it happened as I won’t be able to explain it. But Alhamdulillah, I’m still alive. Yet, indeed, I’m still terrified.
But, what if I die? What if I die?
I just can’t leave yet. I just can’t leave now. My duties and purpose in this life have yet to be completed. I still have lots of obligations to be fulfilled of which I can’t just inherit it to my family for them to take care of… especially my problems. I’ve been keeping lots of things only to myself. I just can’t leave now. I do not want to burden my family with my problems. i never want that to happen and never meant for it to happen.
Ya Allah! Please forgive me for whatever wrongdoings that I’ve done in all this while. Please give me more time to make things right.
Dear family and friends, I seek your most sincere forgiveness in any sorts. I have hurt your feelings then, and I might do it again in the future, but do forgive me. Should I die, please remember me in the most pleasant way and please get rid of any ridiculous behaviour of mine of which you hated the most. I’m begging you please… I’m begging you please… Maybe I’ve never said this before, but deep down in my heart, I treasured all of you the most and I Love You!
I need sometime to adjust my life back to it’s normal condition. My heart is still pounding fast since the incident. I just hope that everything will be alright in no time…
